34..Story: Only This
Verse 1
I was standing in the kitchen
Building worlds from yesterday
A sentence turning in my chest
Till it took my breath away
Then something softened in the middle
And the whole thing lost its claim
There was tightening, image, thinking
But no one there to own the name
Pre-Chorus
Just this moving
Just this fire
Before the mind
Calls in desire
Chorus
There is only experiencing
Not a me behind the scene
Not a thinker holding thought
Not a self for what has been
If a story starts to rise
That too is moving through the stream
There is only experiencing
Everything else is about the dream
Verse 2
A grief image came at sunset
My father’s hands, the hospital light
And tears arrived before the meaning
Could assemble for the night
Then the old mind tried to name it
Tried to say what it was for
But all that really could be found there
Was ache and salt and something more
Pre-Chorus
Not the reason
Not the why
Just this weather
Passing by
Chorus
There is only experiencing
Not a me behind the scene
Not a thinker holding thought
Not a self for what has been
If a story starts to rise
That too is moving through the stream
There is only experiencing
Everything else is about the dream
Bridge
About the past
About the pain
About the way I should have changed
About the wound
About the fear
But all of that arrives right here
As thought and image
Heat and breath
As little stories dressed as depth
And if I see them as they start
They lose their grip around the heart
Final Chorus
There is only experiencing
No one standing off apart
Just the whole alive verbing
Of this unfinished, shining heart
And if a story still appears
I let it come, I let it sing
But I don’t lose the living fact
There is only experiencing
Outro
Not what it means
Not what it proves
Just this life
As it moves
And if I need
To act, I will
But first there’s this
Quiet and still
Only experiencing
