It landed as a sentence.
Not a teaching.
Not a philosophy.
A sentence.
“The mosquito bite of seeking will never heal while you keep scratching it.”
WHAM.
It wasn’t metaphorical.
It was anatomical.
In that instant, something obvious — embarrassingly obvious — snapped into view.
I couldn’t be awake and still be a seeker.
They were mutually exclusive.
Seeking meant later.
Awake meant now.
Seeking leaned forward, neck craned, skin already irritated by what wasn’t here yet.
Awake stood still, barefoot in the moment, noticing the itch without obeying it.
THIS.
IS.
IT.
Not as reassurance.
As fact.
And then another recognition struck — quieter, stranger.
Nothing was ever being seen as it happened.
Seeing lagged.
Milliseconds behind reality.
By the time something was noticed — a sound, a thought, a reaction —
it was already over.
Finished.
Untouchable.
That was the second WHAM.
Every attempt to wish a moment different was an attempt to rewrite something that had already closed its door.
Not only futile, but also distorting.
Like smearing ink across a photograph and calling it editing.
The confusion, the suffering, the emotional static —
it wasn’t coming from what happened.
It was coming from scratching what was already done.
So surrender wasn’t noble.
It was sane.
The only intelligent response to a finished moment
was to stop arguing with it.
THIS IS IT became a refrain.
A laugh.
A handbrake.
When the mind surged forward — THIS IS IT.
When regret pulled backward — THIS IS IT.
When boredom, joy, irritation, love, confusion appeared —
THIS. IS. IT.
The seeking stopped not because it was wrong,
but because it was unnecessary.
The mosquito bite healed the moment I stopped scratching.
GUIDANCE — “From Seeking to Seeing”
This isn’t instruction.
It’s an invitation to notice what’s already happening.
1. Catch the itch
Seeking doesn’t feel lofty.
It feels like:
restlessness
subtle dissatisfaction
“not quite yet”
waiting for something to land
That sensation is the itch.
Notice it without scratching.
2. See the time lag
Pay attention to this:
a sound is heard after it happens
a thought is noticed after it arises
a reaction is seen after it’s already in motion
Reality leads.
Seeing follows.
Ask gently:
What am I trying to change that has already finished?
3. Drop the argument
Wishing a moment were different adds a second layer:
confusion, tension, distortion.
The moment itself is neutral.
The resistance is the noise.
Try this phrase — not as belief, but as orientation:
THIS IS IT.
Let it land in the body.
4. Recognise the incompatibility
Being awake means:
openness to what is
intimacy with now
nothing missing
Being a seeker means:
postponement
dissatisfaction by design
salvation projected forward
You can visit seeking.
But you can’t live there and be awake.
5. Let the simplicity offend the mind
The mind will protest:
“Surely it’s more than this.”
Smile.
That protest is more scratching.
THIS IS IT doesn’t end life.
It ends the war with life.