Verse 1
I thought the edge was somewhere waiting
just beyond the next wrong choice
one more day, one more retreat
one more dark familiar voice
I thought safety lived in hiding
in the room where no one came
with the curtains drawn around me
and the cat who knew my name
Pre-Chorus
But the fear was not a monster
just a guard beside the gate
telling stories of the danger
it had learned to call my fate
Chorus
And the edge was here
the edge was now
not some cliff I had to find somehow
in the breath, in the chest
in the thought that said I’d never rest
and home was here
beneath the fear
not far away, not later in the year
just this life drawing near
and the edge was here
Verse 2
I said, “I am lonely,” softly
and the room began to change
not because the word was holy
not because it broke the chains
but I felt it in the body
saw the stories start to rise
saw the old world being painted
right behind my open eyes
Pre-Chorus
And a thought can point forever
to another thought ahead
or be seen as just a ripple
moving through the mind instead
Chorus
And the edge was here
the edge was now
not some place I had to reach somehow
in the ache, in the wall
in the force field holding all
and home was here
beneath the fear
in the cat, the breath, the room, the tear
not a rescue, not a cure
just the simple door
Bridge
Familiar pain can feel like shelter
unknown peace can feel like threat
the mind will choose the smaller prison
over freedom it has never met
but the guards are getting tired
and the gate is losing weight
and the sheriff with the shotgun
only wants to keep me safe
So let him sit beside the fire
let him lower both his hands
he was never there to hurt me
he just didn’t understand
Verse 3
There’s a house of cards inside me
built on “I am not enough”
built on “I am never safe here”
built on old and borrowed stuff
but I don’t need to burn it down now
I can watch one card fall free
and the whole thing trembles gently
in the space that looks like me
Final Chorus
And the edge is here
the edge is now
not some final leap I must allow
in the thought, in the skin
in the place I’m frightened to come in
and home is here
beneath the fear
closer than the next idea
not a path, not a test
just this life allowed to rest
Outro
No urgency
no finish line
no perfect state
I have to find
just this breath
this room
this tear
and the edge
was always
here
