Lyrics
Verse 1
She hovered over the button again,
Little red light like it knows her name.
Straighten the spine, soften the face,
Make sure the smile lands in the right place.
It’s not the talking that wears her down,
It’s holding the mask while the screen stays on—
Every blink, every nod, every breath on cue,
Trying to look like how she’s meant to look too.
Chorus
It’s not that I don’t want to be seen,
It’s just hard to keep being me.
Reading the room through a glass and a frame,
Dragging my body through somebody else’s game.
Camera on feels like holding my breath—
Camera off, I can finally rest.
Verse 2
She watches her reflection talk,
Mirrors inside mirrors while the minutes clock.
Is that face right? Too still? Too much?
Did I nod enough? Did I miss the touch?
Every silence feels like something to fill,
Every movement judged against an invisible will.
It’s exhausting trying to appear “okay,”
When okay requires a full display.
Chorus
It’s not that I don’t want to be seen,
It’s just hard to keep being me.
Managing eyes and posture and tone,
Pretending my body isn’t asking to go home.
Camera on feels like holding my breath—
Camera off, I can finally rest.
Bridge
There’s nothing wrong with my face at ease,
With my body not performing ease.
I don’t disappear when the screen goes dark—
I come back to myself, I feel my heart.
I can still listen, I can still care,
Without arranging myself to fit the glare.
Verse 3
So maybe someday it won’t feel this tight,
Maybe presence won’t need a spotlight.
But for now I’ll honor the nervous sigh
That says, “Enough — let me just be nearby.”
I’m still here, even when unseen,
More honest now than I ever was on screen.
Final Chorus
It’s not that I don’t want to be known,
I just don’t want to live as a tone.
If connection means losing my breath,
Then tonight I choose a little gentler depth.
Camera off, shoulders drop, I feel myself again—
Not hiding… just human.
Outro
The screen goes dark.
The body exhales.
I’m still here.
